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I'm wondering if every relationship we have goes through some sort of problem? I know storms come into our life to teach us and help us grow. This last storm has been a good one. My oldest turned 18 and decided she wanted to move in with her dad. The way it was handled was terrible and underhanded big time. I miss her though, since being there she never calls, emails, or much of anything. I'm lucky if I talk to her once a week. I know she has her lessons in life to learn but does it have to hurt so much?

Then in a few weeks it will be 21 years ago I had a miscarriage. I have never forgotten and I always wondered if was a boy or girl and what it would've been like. It's harder for me at this moment because of the things going on with my daughters. I've heard it said that when you go to heaven you will meet the child that you miscarried, aborted, or stillbirth. At first the thought scared the daylights out of me. Now I'm ok with it, I wanna know. I wonder why that baby wasn't meant to be? So I do the best I can and know my life is going the right way it's supposed to.

I really believe I'm supposed to take this time and work on me and my body. Which I have been. I've been walking more and more, eating much better, doing the acupuncture, and now I've started sauna therapy. I LOVE IT!!!! It is so awesome to do it, I get to sit in there and listen to relaxing music. I think and pray. I go again tomorrow morning.

I'm starting to read Tuesdays with Morrie, I haven't gotten very far so I haven't formed an opinion of the book just yet. It's not a very long book so hopefully I'll finish it quickly. I have so many books yet to read. The weather has been getting nicer lately and we've started going back to the mountains. It's always so peaceful there. I feel like there are going to be some big changes in my life coming up.....not sure what it is though, wish I did.

It was a full moon last night and an eclipse, I think it messed with my sleeping. I woke up at 3:15. I was not happy. I have to admit when I went into the bathroom the moon was shining bright through the window it was beautiful. I still wasn't about to stay awake. So I kept telling myself go to sleep, think peaceful thoughts.....I did fall back to sleep then the alarm went off, go figure.

I got my hair trimmed a few days ago and now I'm trying to grow my bangs out, which is weird because I've had bangs since I was 3 yrs old. It's different so we'll see if I can handle it :)

Well I think I'm going to go rest. Have a blessed day