I was talking to my sisters seeing what was going on with Christmas. The oldest one said she and the hubby are just going to stay home, they are really tired etc etc. Hmmmm wonder if she's really ok, she is a breast cancer survivor. Asked the other sister what is she doing, is she going to her mom's (we have same dad who he disowned us)? She said no....what? So I ask our brother, he is going to his mom's. I feel so bad for E, I know she has to feel terrible that only her son is coming over. The conversations felt all wrong!! Shall I throw a curve ball? Their mom is my cousin. You see my dad married his first cousin. Not gonna touch that one anymore. So I care very much for my sister's and brother's mom.

Isn't Christmas a time to get together with family and celebrate whatever you believe? I'm just sad. I have children, so does #2 sister, and brother. The cousins should all be together making memories so when they are older they can do the remember when thing!!

So I'm making Christmas dinner at my house for my family. I have a turkey and a ham. I'll make gluten free stuffing and I can't wait to try it. My son hasn't had stuffing in a year. He has had to be gluten free since February. Not only gluten free but sugar and brown rice syrup is a no no for him. Agave or honey is fine. Thanksgiving I made a very yummy apple cobbler I used agave. I might make that again for dessert. I also found a recipe for cranberry sauce where I can use honey or agave. I've made it before so I know that will turn out tasting good.

This has been a crazy week with my kids. My #2 daughter was sick Tuesday, #1 daughter sprained her ankle and Wednesday she was put in a splint and has crutches, then my son started getting sick Wednesday night and never stopped till 11 am yesterday. I was starting to get worried, he was up all night in the bathroom. He even made a little bed on the floor so he could lay down. Luckily there is a heater right there so it keeps the floor warm. He couldn't keep anything down, not even small sips of room temperature water. I gave him some homemade chicken soup, just the broth about 11 and also gave him so organic ginger ale. He kept all that down. Thank God other wise I was taking him in to make sure he wasn't dehydrated! He then had toast at 1 and did very well. He fell asleep on me for an hour by 6 he was craving a cheeseburger. LOL my son was back!!! His cheeks were a bit rosy but he's feeling much better.

I had to joke around with him because he knew yesterday was payday for his dad and I so I wanted to get the shopping finished for dinner and Christmas. He got sick on purpose so he didn't have to go. So now that he just woke and after having a great night sleep he is gonna go today :). Told him I found a great recipe for stuffing and he's licking his lips already!!!

I'm making a special appetizer for my #2 daughter, she loves cream cheese and black olives on sociable crackers. So that is her special treat tomorrow. Wish my eldest daughter was here, we all miss her so much.

OOOH I just thought of another yummy appetizer I haven't made in years. It's cream cheese, powdered italian dressing, cut up beef budding meat and mixed together in a ball. oh wow. Maybe I'll make that for New Year's eve?

Got a call from my dr. Wednesday about my blood sugar and calcium results which wow that was fast I had the blood taken Tuesday. But the blood sugar was 88 and that was impressive because i had 2 cups of coffee 2 hours prior. I'm thinking it's because I use agave in my coffee but I use Coffee mate's Italian Cream creamer. I know it has stuff in there that's not so good for us but it is so yummy!! Then my calcium is at 9.5 which is right in the middle I guess the ranges are 8.7-10.2. Makes me wonder what is going on with my Vit D? I've been taking high doses of it. It's not like I can sit outside in this lovely Wisconsin weather. Although when the sun is out I sit in the spot where it's shining :). Dr. Mercola has a tanning bed that uses only uvb rays, man I wish I could get one. He also has the type that you can put on the back of a door. That would be nice to have. Get my D levels up and some color on me.

Going through this hormonal imbalance crap sure is hard. I have lots of information so I know I'll beat it and get myself back on track. Maybe going back to Az is better for me after all.

Owell I better get my gushy in gear. Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Be Blessed, filled with Love and Light!!!

12-20

I have the next 2 weeks off of work. YEAAAA, but yet I miss the kids. I've been trying to do some deep cleaning in the house so catch up on it. I don't have a dirty house by any means but I like it cleaner. Having 2 cats is work! I have to sweep every other day (fur) especially in the bathroom where their litter box is in. I need to get in my room because I have to do laundry and get present wrapped, plus I need to finish decorating it. I want it to be relaxing, yet sexy. I LOVE purple and want to keep that in there.

Just finished a book called Spirit Healing: Native American Magic and Medicine by Mary Dean Atwood. It was a good book, I checked it out from the library and want to add it to my collection. I wonder if my Great Great Grandma did the ceremonies and kept with their ways? Wish I would've known her.

My son is going to be 11 in a few days and I can't believe it and then a week in a half later my oldest will be 21...now that one I really can't believe. Wish she would be here for Christmas, I miss having a Christmas with all my children :(.

I'm starting a new thing with my kids, we are going to have a kid's cook night. My youngest daughter and son will be the ones doing it. They can take turns. I have kid's cookbooks so it will be easy for them. We'll make a menu so that way it's planned and I can have the ingredients on hand when it's their day. I'm trying to find fun traditions to start with them. I have some now but want more.