2011 end

I can't believe it's the end of 2011. I look back at the year and wonder where the time has gone.  The days go by so fast. I don't want to look back on my life and wonder what I've done. At least I'm losing weight, feeling better, working toward a better marriage. At least I hope a better marriage.  Been seeing a counselor and I think she will be able to get through to the hubby better than the last 2. However I find myself getting irritated, why? Because I see the same old patterns happening. If you want to get out of a rut, to have things change and get better work has to be done.  It takes two to have a marriage but it also takes one to ruin it. Hubby has an issue that is his, but it affects me and my children. I HATE this issue, it's been around far too long and I want it gone NOW. I know I have to be patient. But after dealing with it for 12 years my patience has worn very very thin.  Last time we were at the counselor, she asked hubby if he had done any research, reading, etc on his issue? His answer? No, it's been busy at work, it's the holiday.............all I hear is blah blah blah EXCUSES, it's the same tactic to not deal! UGH. I said I was irritated....

She noticed right away the look on my face and I told her honestly it is all excuses, he could get up to get our son off to school, do some "him" time, get ready for work, he could do reading online from his phone when it's slow at work, or when he gets home. It's not a priority bottom line

Just like me with wanting to lose weight, I have to put forth the effort, I have to make changes, or nothing will get better for me. It's all up to me, I have read a ton about my health issues, i know what I need to eat and what not to eat, I know my body's limitations, I know what exercises I can do, I have to get off my ass and do it bottom line.

Had a few issues come up with my son, he has taken up lying, touching things that aren't his without permission, when he's asked to do something he has to do it right away or he forgets. I have such a hard time with the lying. My #2dd made cupcakes and before I went to work, I counted how many there were. When I came home there were 3 missing, I asked son about it and he said he only had one. I asked hubby if he had any, he said no, I asked #2dd she said no she was sleeping. I noticed there were 3 cupcake wrappers in the garbage, so I called my son over and asked him where those came from? He swore up and down he didn't know. I guess the cats each had a cupcake too. So I told him to go to his room so he can think about what it means to lie and what lying does.

He finally said he actually had 2 cupcakes.....and the third? UGH!!! On Wednesday he was watching American Dad, he knows he's not allowed to watch that, so he now isn't allowed to watch tv unless I'm able to see what he's watching, he's gotten the computer taken away, he made a youtube account after I told him no many times over the last 4 months. I'm not a happy mama to say the least. I think hubby and I need to have a lovely talk and he needs to stress to our son the importance of no lying and not doing things behind our backs. I think part of the consequences is some deep cleaning!!!

Work was quite easy this week, it was optional week so we didn't have very many children. I miss my own class, I can't wait till Monday to see them again. I'm getting my lesson plans all set for January, I love the fact that my assistant is quite talented, I gave her the bulletin board to do each month. I wonder what she'll do for January?  2 of my friends had their babies on my son's birthday, that is so awesome. Now I have to wait till my Assistant goes to the Dr. and finds out her due date. I am so happy for her. I know she was concerned she might not get pregnant. She and her husband got married in June, bought their house over a year ago, and now a blessing on the way. She deserves every bit of that happiness.

I've still not having dairy anymore and my muscles and joints aren't sore anymore. I'm amazed at how food can affect your body. My son isn't able to have whole milk it messes with his stomach, I have a feeling he too needs to limit his dairy!! I've noticed dark circles under my eyes, can I just say not liking that one bit. I read putting raw potato on it will help. So I'm going to see if that works. I've been putting cold spoons on it before I leave for work in the morning lol it helps and there's no puffiness :)

#2dd's hair is fried, she keeps dying it when she goes to her dad's and it's looking unhealthy. I was at Ulta (dangerous place for me) and bought some Macadamia nut oil deep repair masque for her to use. It smells really good and her hair is looking much better, she's done 2 masks and I also got her the leave in conditioner.

Well I'm feeling a bit fatigued and blah, I'm going to lay down and hopefully get rid of it so I can enjoy so fun with my family later as we bring in the new year. Be blessed