Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!! I was actually one of those nutty people that goes shopping on Christmas Eve lol. I had to get a few things and I am doooone woo hoo! This is a tight Christmas but that's ok. I'm not one to go all out spending a ton of money anyway. I would much rather get together with family and friends and have a great meal and spend time together. I've heard quite a few people complaining how commerical Christmas has gotten. If that is how people choose to spend Christmas so be it. I choose to get some gifts, tells stories to my children, and reflect over the year and tell about the many blessings that have come my way. And to also talk about what the holiday means to different religions.

Early today I was having a bad day someone I love very much decided they were upset that they won't see me on Christmas because of our schedules and circumstances. I was supposed to see this person today but because they chose to look at all the negative in the situation I was jipped of having a good day with him. I texted messaged and called but got the silent treatment. I struggled with letting it go and being very hurt. They say we teach people how to treat us. So I emailed and respectfully aired my feelings. I did finally get a text but went silent again. It amazes me how 2 people can be in the same situation and each person has a totally different way of looking at it. We were on the phone and I was just appauled at the attitude. We choose the way we view things and if he wants to look at what sucks there isn't anything I can do about it. BUT I will not let it steal my peace anymore nor will I let it bring me down.

I'm really sad at how the day went, but I enjoyed some fun time with my son. I had to tell him not to tell Nana that he saw his gift. It's hard to go shopping when I didn't have anyone to watch him. His birthday is the day after Christmas and I can say that was the best Christmas gift I ever got.

Was talking to 2 of my best friends today. One is in PA and the other in FL. I really miss them so much. I'm so thankful for them. PA was saying she might have to move back here because jobs aren't there. I know that will break her heart because she really loves where she lives plus she has family. I told her if she does come back we'll have each other. I told them both no matter what the ecomony is, no matter what the problem is in life we have to find the good and keep our focus on that, make lemonade out of lemons.

So my affirmation for today was I am willing to release any relationship that no longer nourishes or supports me. I am always secure in love.

Well it's time for me to be cooking. I hope you all have a blessed and wonderful Christmas
Blessing to all!!!