Had to go to my daughter's play and on my way home was listening to the Steve Harvey morning show. He does these letter where people ask questions. He was saying he doesn't understand why women beat themselves down. How we are the treasure and we need to not put ourselves down, second guess ourselves etc. I was just talking with my friend Sara the other day about how we look at ourselves and it was the same thing Steve was saying.
Looking at the definition of treasure, used as a verb means to be highly valuable and precious. hmmm so how does one go about knowing and being highly valuable and precious? It has to start within ourself. That's where I know Louise Hay says we have to love ourself and never ever critize.
I wish I had more time to go into this but I have to get to work. I wanted to at least get down what I thinking of.
to be continued :) be blessed
Friday, July 17, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Had a good nights sleep, woke up feeling really refreshed. Bf has been suffering alot with migraine headaches. I noticed that's also around when his moods changed and he was grouchier. I text him and asked if he felt he had been out of sorts lately? he said no and I told him I might disagree and why. For about a month I felt like something was off between us and couldn't put my finger on it. Think I know now. We went out to eat for breakfast at a cafe, oh man it's really good!! Then afterwards we went to the lake. We took our shoes off and stood in the lake. At first it was really cold and it took my breath away. My son was in there like it was nothing....to be a kid again :). We walked along way and then bf and son were skipping rocks. That was fun to watch them. We also climbed the big rocks that are around there. Son had a blast doing that. He was saying how beautiful it was around there and really wanted to get a boat so he could have more fun. I agree I would love to get a boat too. We talked about nature and its importance. I hope he always remembers!!!
So I've been online reading different articles and stumbed on Deepak Chopra's site and read about the law of giving and to remember that I can bring a gift to someone no matter where I go. It can be a smile, a prayer, a compliment. To receive gratefully all the gifts life gives to me.
I've just been informed that it is 2:30 and my son is starving. More later..............
Saturday, July 11, 2009
laughter
Grabbed a Truth of Life book and was reading a chapter on laugher.
There's a part where Munetada Kurozumi says we must ensure that the Sun Goddess within us is kept full, and not eclipsed all the time. When positive principles becomes weak in us, the negative principle becomes ascendant. When the negative wins out, there is contamination, a state in which vitality has dried out. If you spend your days thankfully, everything will turn out wonderfully. If your mind gets gloomy it will be difficult for you to get ahead in the world. You must do your best to fill yourself with feelings of spring as you devote yourself to your task.
Laughter doesn't make just the person who laughs healthy and happy. Cheerful people spread happiness and good health wherever they go. Pleasant humor, clever witticism, innocent nonsense, a roar of laughter are forms of good natural medicine. They lubricate points of friction between people's minds and offer relief as we tread the steep and difficult paths of life. They are medicine you should take in an even greater quanity when you are exhausted by the battles of life.
That is so true for me, I find when there is alot of stressful things going on I have to stop and do something that will make me laugh. I've said many times I'm a big Tyler Perry fan, his movies and tv shows have helped me in so many wonderful ways. I watched Gran Tarino the other day, it was totally not what I expected. Clint Eastwood's character had me laughing.
Working with children makes me laugh all the time. They amaze me with the things they come up with. I have one little boy T, when T dances it is the most hilarious and precious sight. He has such a determined look on his face. Plus the way he talks is equally funny.
Ever heard that the enviroment you are around affects you profoundly? Yep that is true for me. I was doing very well with keeping upbeat and positive. Then when my bf and I got together things changed. I had to recognize what it was doing to me and stop it. I can let his moods affect me in a negative way or I can choose to create my own mood despite his cranky butt. I've found when I don't let him get to me and I'm still my playful goofy self, his moods lightens alot.
There are quite a few movies out that I want to go see, they look funny and I think I need a good dose of laughter.
Off to do my hair, hope you have a great weekend, be blessed
There's a part where Munetada Kurozumi says we must ensure that the Sun Goddess within us is kept full, and not eclipsed all the time. When positive principles becomes weak in us, the negative principle becomes ascendant. When the negative wins out, there is contamination, a state in which vitality has dried out. If you spend your days thankfully, everything will turn out wonderfully. If your mind gets gloomy it will be difficult for you to get ahead in the world. You must do your best to fill yourself with feelings of spring as you devote yourself to your task.
Laughter doesn't make just the person who laughs healthy and happy. Cheerful people spread happiness and good health wherever they go. Pleasant humor, clever witticism, innocent nonsense, a roar of laughter are forms of good natural medicine. They lubricate points of friction between people's minds and offer relief as we tread the steep and difficult paths of life. They are medicine you should take in an even greater quanity when you are exhausted by the battles of life.
That is so true for me, I find when there is alot of stressful things going on I have to stop and do something that will make me laugh. I've said many times I'm a big Tyler Perry fan, his movies and tv shows have helped me in so many wonderful ways. I watched Gran Tarino the other day, it was totally not what I expected. Clint Eastwood's character had me laughing.
Working with children makes me laugh all the time. They amaze me with the things they come up with. I have one little boy T, when T dances it is the most hilarious and precious sight. He has such a determined look on his face. Plus the way he talks is equally funny.
Ever heard that the enviroment you are around affects you profoundly? Yep that is true for me. I was doing very well with keeping upbeat and positive. Then when my bf and I got together things changed. I had to recognize what it was doing to me and stop it. I can let his moods affect me in a negative way or I can choose to create my own mood despite his cranky butt. I've found when I don't let him get to me and I'm still my playful goofy self, his moods lightens alot.
There are quite a few movies out that I want to go see, they look funny and I think I need a good dose of laughter.
Off to do my hair, hope you have a great weekend, be blessed
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
7-7
I had a chiropractor appointment this morning. So I got up early worked out, showered and then went to see the great Dr. Krista. I get there and she adjusts me with her clicker thing. Then puts the pads on that sends electrical current to the muscles. I was like this for a good 20 minutes. Got my back iced too. Then she did the Logan Adjustment on me. Aw man it is a very gentle adjustment it's in the butt area and let me tell you every time I have this done and I have sex, the orgasms are way more intense. It's like it gets things flowing better in the lower back area and it feels softer, less clogged, etc. I am trying to keep up with getting my back worked on. So getting regular back adjustments is on my list of staying healthy.
I'm going to be looking into finding someone to do acupuncture again. I miss it!! So if anyone is seeing a chiro..........ask about the logan adjustment and ask for it!!!
Time for me to get in bed. Good night be blessed
I'm going to be looking into finding someone to do acupuncture again. I miss it!! So if anyone is seeing a chiro..........ask about the logan adjustment and ask for it!!!
Time for me to get in bed. Good night be blessed
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
July 1
I've been having alot of headaches lately, sinus and migraine. The migraines seem to be a few days before my period and the sinus is dependant on the weather. That's one thing I didn't deal with often in AZ was my sinues. In Louise Hay's book she said the possible cause of sinus headaches is irritation with a partner. That would forsure be my problem lol.
I have to really ask myself what am I doing in this relationship. I want to give it a chance I want it to work. I already know I can want many things but if the other person doesn't or isn't doing what he should then it's a mut point. I'm the type of person that likes to have stability, yet spontaneity in her life. When I'm running late I let the person know. This man doesn't like to really make plans, he figures if he doesn't say he'll be somewhere at a certain time, he thinks he won't be in trouble. HA, that's not gonna work for me. I'm not sitting around waiting for him to get home, or finish doing whatever. I've talked to him about it. To me it doesn't show much respect. If you know we don't get much alone time and the opportunity presents itself, are you gonna make plans to be with me or pussy foot around? Of course typing this stuff out isn't always the easiest thing to do. I've been getting irritated a lot lately and frankly I don't like it.
I know part of the reason is my life is out of balance. Time to get it back! Lots of questions and the biggest one is am I fooling myself? Is that where this irritation is coming from because maybe deep down I'm not being treated the way I should and I'm holding on for the wrong reasons?
He's been in a bad mood the last few days. I decided I'm not going to let anyone's mood dictate mine. So when I got home from work yesterday I walked in kissed him on the cheek and asked him if he's still grouchy(in a playful way)? Then still playfully told him if he was gonna be crabby he could go to his room and stay there till he got rid of the grouchies. I went about getting things done around the house and his mood seem to get better.
I've been praying for him. There are so many areas in his life where I see lots of negativity. My counselor asked me once if I felt he needed fixing and that I can save him. I laughed and said oh hell no!! We all need fixing in some way, shape, or form but I'm sure not the one that is gonna do any fixing, that's his job. I will be encouraging, we can talk about issues, and if it's something I can't handle and he's not willing to work on it then it's time to move on.
So I started writing down what I want in a relationship. I think I'll give it to him and see what he says. I know there are things that take time to build up to. He just doesn't seem to grasp the common courtesy and respect thing. Another instance. He has a friend name John, John's son was getting married and wanting BF to go. Now it was my understanding that I was invited to go to the wedding also. When the invitation came it was only addressed to BF, normally it will say and guest. I told him so. The wedding was in 4 weeks. I didn't know if I could get a babysitter and also I didn't have anything nice to wear. So the wedding is near and he knew I didn't have anyone to watch my son and knew that I wasn't invited because he never did call John to clarify it.
So he goes to the wedding/reception and is gone for 7 hours. I didn't say a word. I was talking to my exh and he made the comment that he would have never gone to that wedding with out me, especially if I couldn't get a sitter. It's not like it's for someone really important, bf knew the son but wasn't close to him or didn't know him that long. When I mentioned to my best friend Renee what exh said she agreed with him. It did bother me that bf went to the wedding and I wasn't a second thought but I'm tired and didn't want to deal with it. I mentioned to bf what both people had said and he then asked me if i was irritated that he went to the wedding. I told him a little. Nothing was said after that.
I have another appointment with the counselor on the 13th and he's going with. Actions speak volumes and for someone who says he wants to marry me I have to wonder why? You don't treat someone you want to marry that way.
Ok let's get on a happier subject. I'm getting irritated all over again :(
Found a few quotes I really like
Giving up doesn't always mean that you are weak; sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go
Each one has to find his peace from within. And peace to be real must be unaffected by outside circumstances- Mohandas Gandhi
My mom is flying in a week from today. I'm very excited to see her, it's been a year. I took off Friday so we can spend the day together. I need to come up with some fun things we can do.
Time for me to get ready for work. Be blessed
till next time :)
I have to really ask myself what am I doing in this relationship. I want to give it a chance I want it to work. I already know I can want many things but if the other person doesn't or isn't doing what he should then it's a mut point. I'm the type of person that likes to have stability, yet spontaneity in her life. When I'm running late I let the person know. This man doesn't like to really make plans, he figures if he doesn't say he'll be somewhere at a certain time, he thinks he won't be in trouble. HA, that's not gonna work for me. I'm not sitting around waiting for him to get home, or finish doing whatever. I've talked to him about it. To me it doesn't show much respect. If you know we don't get much alone time and the opportunity presents itself, are you gonna make plans to be with me or pussy foot around? Of course typing this stuff out isn't always the easiest thing to do. I've been getting irritated a lot lately and frankly I don't like it.
I know part of the reason is my life is out of balance. Time to get it back! Lots of questions and the biggest one is am I fooling myself? Is that where this irritation is coming from because maybe deep down I'm not being treated the way I should and I'm holding on for the wrong reasons?
He's been in a bad mood the last few days. I decided I'm not going to let anyone's mood dictate mine. So when I got home from work yesterday I walked in kissed him on the cheek and asked him if he's still grouchy(in a playful way)? Then still playfully told him if he was gonna be crabby he could go to his room and stay there till he got rid of the grouchies. I went about getting things done around the house and his mood seem to get better.
I've been praying for him. There are so many areas in his life where I see lots of negativity. My counselor asked me once if I felt he needed fixing and that I can save him. I laughed and said oh hell no!! We all need fixing in some way, shape, or form but I'm sure not the one that is gonna do any fixing, that's his job. I will be encouraging, we can talk about issues, and if it's something I can't handle and he's not willing to work on it then it's time to move on.
So I started writing down what I want in a relationship. I think I'll give it to him and see what he says. I know there are things that take time to build up to. He just doesn't seem to grasp the common courtesy and respect thing. Another instance. He has a friend name John, John's son was getting married and wanting BF to go. Now it was my understanding that I was invited to go to the wedding also. When the invitation came it was only addressed to BF, normally it will say and guest. I told him so. The wedding was in 4 weeks. I didn't know if I could get a babysitter and also I didn't have anything nice to wear. So the wedding is near and he knew I didn't have anyone to watch my son and knew that I wasn't invited because he never did call John to clarify it.
So he goes to the wedding/reception and is gone for 7 hours. I didn't say a word. I was talking to my exh and he made the comment that he would have never gone to that wedding with out me, especially if I couldn't get a sitter. It's not like it's for someone really important, bf knew the son but wasn't close to him or didn't know him that long. When I mentioned to my best friend Renee what exh said she agreed with him. It did bother me that bf went to the wedding and I wasn't a second thought but I'm tired and didn't want to deal with it. I mentioned to bf what both people had said and he then asked me if i was irritated that he went to the wedding. I told him a little. Nothing was said after that.
I have another appointment with the counselor on the 13th and he's going with. Actions speak volumes and for someone who says he wants to marry me I have to wonder why? You don't treat someone you want to marry that way.
Ok let's get on a happier subject. I'm getting irritated all over again :(
Found a few quotes I really like
Giving up doesn't always mean that you are weak; sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go
Each one has to find his peace from within. And peace to be real must be unaffected by outside circumstances- Mohandas Gandhi
My mom is flying in a week from today. I'm very excited to see her, it's been a year. I took off Friday so we can spend the day together. I need to come up with some fun things we can do.
Time for me to get ready for work. Be blessed
till next time :)
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