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I do wish I could be consistent on here. I knew with me going back to work the beginning of September that I would be busy and boy was I right. Today I have love on my mind. Is there really such thing as a soulmate? That person that is "the one", that no matter what you have this connection? When I watched Madea's Family Reunion, there was a part where Cicely Tyson says how blessed she was to have found someone God made just for her, how their heart's beat the same rhythm, how he would say the very thing that was on her mind. He passed away and the rhythm is off but she was so very fortunate to have loved and been loved so strong. Wow!

Is there a love that even after many years of being together you still have a strong passion? I think I know at least one couple....My Uncle and his wife, they have been married for 55 years, had 9 children, and to this day when my uncle speaks of his wife there is a twinkle in his eyes, when he passes her whether in the kitchen or in the living room he touches her, he's always affectionate, attentive, loving, etc.

I wonder if I will ever have such a love. I feel that way about someone now but he also angers me to no end. He is so immature especially for being 11 years older than I am. He has kept himself closed off from people for so long he doesn't know how to have a healthy relationship, I think subconsciously ruins it. When I am around him I feel like I'm at home, when we used to make love there was so much passion, yet we never fully got to know each other's body wonder what it would've been like if we had. He made me laugh, no we made each other laugh all the time, we could talk about everything and anything. Well almost he had his ways of dancing around subjects. He doesn't know how to give himself fully.

Yet he frustrated me so much. Because of his walls. He says I walked into his heart and mind like there wasn't walls but there was I found them. I might have gotten in further than others but still they are there.

I love him, I have for 25 years yet we can't be together. I can't be with someone who can't understand why I compromise and work with my ex-husband when it comes to my children. I still have 2 children that I'm raising and a role model to. How in the world can this happen?

Why can't loving him be easier? Why can't his priorities be in a different order?

Maybe he isn't "the one" and if there is a man out there that I feel more than I do about this one then I can only hope I have the honor of being with him soon.

So what does one do when they are in a relationship with someone they love but don't have that passion? They do have a great friendship and they are there for each other. Is that all it is then is a wonderful friendship? When they make love they have fun and he can find the spots in her that set her off more than anyone else ever has. Is she settling? She feels there is so much missing in her relationship.

Hopefully someday I can answer my own questions and then I can help my fellow girlfriends :)

Vampire Diaries is on tonight, so I must get ready for that.... lol