10-31

There are many unfortunate people in the world and no limit to their misfortunes. Why?
Because happiness or unhappiness is in the mind. It isn't the product of material things or the environment. The mind is at the root of misfortune. Whether you are happy or not depends on whether you feel gratitude or not. For example, if you argue with your spouse all the time, you can't be grateful can you? So, if you don't like being unhappy, don't fight with your spouse. Of course you have to communicate with each other but don't let it get in a yelling match. Look to the good of your spouse and work towards having peace and harmony in your marriage. If you look down on your spouse and want to dominate them, change your way of thinking. Learn to respect your mate and become grateful to them. Your home will brighten up.

You will be much happier and many other good things will happen to you. Not only that but an infinity of other blessings will come to you, for when you are grateful to your parents, respectful of your spouse, and seek to live together in harmony, you are living in accordance with the Divine Will.

My friend's Mom is a wonderful woman, she was the one that introduced me to Truth of Life. She told me to write my prayers down and then say it is already granted to me, thank you very much. She keeps a piece of paper with her prayers tucked away on the left side of her bra, she said she wants to keep it closest to her heart. She is so funny!

I was thinking back to when I was younger and there were things I really wanted to happen in my life and I would believe it would happen, there was no negative thoughts coming into my head, I didn't have anyone telling me it was impossible. I understand why Tyler Perry decided to take dream haters out of his life. I also get why Jesus said we have to have faith like a child. The things I wanted did come true.......even if I shouldn't have wanted to date one boyfriend. Be very careful what you wish for!!!

I've had my share of trials in my life but as crazy as it sounds I'm grateful to them. I have learned so much. I am much more patient, understanding, happier, healthier, calmer.

I have to get in the shower and get some things done before I have to become a taxi driver....

Have a blessed day

10-28

I have had an emotional week!! I was able to spend sometime with my youngest daughter and my sister. it was nice seeing the changing of the trees in Wisconsin. My friend was supposed to pick me up from the airport but he wasn't able to because he had to get into the Dr.'s office to have a stress test done. I hope his heart is doing ok. I wish the man would just take a few weeks off and rest, ooooh he can be so darn stubborn!!! I'll keep tabs on him he he he his employees will let me know what is going on when I call :)

I've heard many Pastors say that when you are in a trial try to find joy in it, because it means a blessing is right behind it. I think I'm seeing a message coming about.........about finances. I'm reading a book by TDJakes called Reposition Yourself, I'm halfway done with it. I read most of it on the airplane last night. It's good though!!! Then Pastor has been preaching about different biblical principals regarding finances.

Got a phone call last night from one of my best friends. She was very upset about seeing her husband whom she is seperated from walk in a bar with a girl. I tried to calm her down and tell her she needs to leave and not try to kick the girls butt, it's not worth it. I text message her this morning and then my cousin called to tell me my friend was in the hospital, she slit her wrists. I want to kick her butt so badly. I know she's in pain, I know her life is upside down, and it's scary but this is not the way to handle it. It didn't help that she had been drinking. I talked to one of the counselors at the hospital and hopefully it helped them understand what is going on with her. I went down when Pastor asked if anyone needs prayer, I had to stand in for her. I also went down about the situation with my youngest daughter.

I was able to talk to my friend and tell her I understand and I'm here for her. I told her I loved her and let her know I'm praying for her. Not sure how that will go over, I think she is mad at everything and everyone, including God.

Here is a good quote I read the other day

Anger without action leaves us bitter not better

10-17

Watched Oprah today, Bill Cosby was on and man what he said was so true. I think what he had to say was good for every race to hear and learn from.

Distinguish discipline from punishment.

This is not just a word game. Discipline and punishment really are different things. Discipline may include punishment but aims for a much higher goal. Discipline includes other ways to shape a child's behavior for the long term, not just for the short term. The aim of good discipline is to teach children self-control and the difference between right and wrong, which becomes part of their inner character.

I went to Oprah.com and got that from some good ways to discipline. Love what it says.

I called a hospice to see about their volunteer program. They are finishing up the last class of the year tomorrow. When the woman heard where I'm from, she was so excited, I guess they need volunteers in my area badly. If it's meant to be it'll happen. The thought of me helping someone, keeping them company, or whatever makes me feel good.

Not to cut it short but time for me to go. Blessings

10-12

I woke up this morning with my adrenals feeling a bit drained. Yes I can tell. All the stress with my children and ex over the years took it's toll on me and had nasty adrenal fatigue. I love love love my naturopath Dr. she gave me different supplements along with cortisol tablets and now a year later I am do tons better (it normally takes 2-3 yrs to fully recover from it). So I know my limits and when I push them I feel it. It's amazing how we take for granted feeling good. I had moments where I could barely get out of bed. I did a lot of resting, reading, praying, and now it's all paid off. I do have to eat well and exercise which we all need to do anyway.



I got up earlier than I normally do and I was I guess anxious not sure why. Usually when I don't know why I'm feeling like this I say the Our Father prayer. So I did and also was reading my TOL magazine, watched Creflo Dollar, and TDJakes. Something has me down, I know it's the situation with my middle child and my ex. I had to go to my room, put on some relaxing music, take some deep breaths, and then I got out my affirmations. It worked I could feel myself feeling lighter and happier.



My husband and I are in a situation with our home, do we stay or sell. I would love to get a house where we can have horses on them. I absolutely love horses and would also want a cow or two. I love looking at the animals, being around them is so relaxing for me. I know someone who has a farm and she has Morgan horses. My oldest takes riding lessons from her and I've gotten to know all of the horses. There are 3 of them that I desperately want to buy. I want to learn more about the horses, I don't think it's wise to buy horses and not know what I'm doing. I could always board them at the farm until I was comfortable having them on my own property.

OH MY GOODNESS, my husband and I went to see Why Did I Get Married? and it was awesome. I told my husband I need to ask Tyler Perry if somehow we have the same friends because his last 2 movies have really been so close as to my life. Jill Scott really does a wonderful job, everyone did but she was wonderful!!! I would write more but I am tired and going to bed. Good Night and God Bless

10-11

Woke up this morning to my youngest snuggled in the middle of my husband and I. My back was a bit stiff, I looked to see what time it was and noticed I would be getting up in 20 minutes so I just snuggled up to him. Didn't go back to sleep but instead thanked God for another wonderful day, said a prayer for my children, and then started thinking about what I'm going to cook for breakfast. Got to the kitchen area, opened all the windows and doors, let the dog out. It's a bit chilly but nice. I hope it doesn't get too hot in the house with the oven going on. I decided to make gluten free sausage and cheese muffins with scrambled egg and mandarin oranges.

I turned the tv on so I could hear Creflo Dollar while I prepared breakfast. I didn't hear the whole thing but at least it was on and I still heard it, hopefully my subconious mind picked everything up :). So the muffins are cooking and Creflo is done. I remembered yesterday my mom telling me about Oprah being on an XM channel and last night my husband showed me too so I found it. Dr. Robin Smith was on and immediately I knew her guest's voice......Tyler Perry. One more day till his movies comes out WOO HOO. They were talking about forgiveness, go figure, Tyler said that forgiving is something we have to do, to free ourselves. Amen brother!!! It doesn't mean what that person did was ok, you forgive to let go of the hurt, anger, bitterness, etc. All that stuff is bondage and it does nothing good. If all that negative stuff is inside it ends up coming out of you as diseases, diabetes, cancer, thyroid, etc. Not only that sometimes people know what they are doing is wrong but they just don't realize the full extent of what it does to their spirit.

I fully believe we come to the earth with lessons to learn. There have been many moments I wonder what could I have possibly been thinking choosing to do certain things LOL. Then again, it's my thoughts and actions that create my future. God tells us in many different ways how to stay on the right path but sometimes we have to learn for ourselves. Was reading my new TOL magazine and there was a story about a married couple with 2 children. The couple was fighting all the time, the children were sick, and one day a friend of the wife came over and the friend told the wife that it was her fault her home was the way it was (not in those harsh words). She was telling the wife about Truth of Life and their teachings (they don't care what religion you are, they believe in them all) and the wife learned that her mindset created it all. Her husband would talk to her but she wouldn't listen, he got frustrated, yelled, the cycle started all over again with other things. So the wife went the the TOL church, read the magazines and her mindset changed, the home was getting more peaceful, the husband wasn't yelling as much, and the children's health also improved.

The story goes on but they end up in church, health, and having a great marriage.

My muffins are done now, oh my goodness are they good!!! I'm looking outside and the sky is so blue, I don't see a cloud anywhere. It's so beautiful here, I love it!!! My husband has the day off, so we'll be spending the day together while the children are in school. I have to remember we need to stop at the library to drop off books I checked out last week.

I have to finish the rest of breakfast, be back later, until then be blessed and have a great day!!!

Beautiful Morning

I woke up feeling refreshed, the sun wasn't quite out yet but it was still very beautiful outside.
I really don't remember much of what I dreamt about. I read the Truth of Life magazine before going to bed and as I woke up this morning first thing I did was Thank God for another great day. There are times I get confused with different religions and wonder what my path is and that has been a prayer of mine. I know God will answer me, He always does.

Today is once again a "Divine Day". It is a day in which God will bring me happiness. Thus, I will believe and look forward to good things. My mind is bright and cheerful. Gratefully envisioning the Truth. That happiness is already coming my way. I give my earnest, heartfelt gratitude to God.

In reading my TOL magazine there is a section that really spoke to me. It said:

Prayers, thoughts, and ideas actually tune our mind to guide us even more in God's direction and adjust our spiritual vibrations to His.

The wavelengths of a radio program are here and now, regardless of whether or not we have a radio or whether we are tuned into that station. Similarly, the happiness with which God has blessed us is always here and now, regardless of whether or not we pray. The reason why happness is not realized, despite the fact that it is already here, is because we have not tuned ourselves to those wavelengths. The way to tune ourselves to those wavelengths is through prayer and meditation.

Watching Creflo Dollar the other morning also spoke to me. He was talking about spiritual maturity. You know I really have been blessed!!! Praise God!!! I have learned so much and have really changed. The wonderful thing is I am still learning and growing. The things I read or listened to years ago were like little seeds being planted and I am now seeing the fruit. WOW

I pray I am able to teach my children the things I know now and have it help them be the best people they can be.

I have to go to the eye dr. this morning to pick out new glasses. I have to straighten our bedroom up a bit, it really does make a difference when there is clutter around. That is also my new found thing...........get rid of clutter!!! I think we will cook on the grill tonight. I am trying to have my whole family eat much healthier, our bodies are God's Temple and need to be taken care of as such. Also seeing that show You are what you eat on BBC America helps. After dinner I'll get my husband and son to go for a walk with me. I love going for walks at night especially if the wind is blowing softly. Oh geez look at the time, gotta get in the shower. Wishing you many blessings today and everyday!!!

Hi again,

I went through my emails today and there was a message from Tyler Perry. I get inspiration from many different people and he is forsure one of them!!!

Yesterday a reporter asked me a question. He said, "With all that is happening to you now--when you were growing up in New Orleans did you ever imagine that you would be in this position?"

I told him, "Yes, I did imagine!"

He was shocked. He said, "You don't think that's a little arrogant?"

I told him this--and I want to share it with you because the way he looked at me I know that he won't print it.

I said, "I had to imagine myself in a better place. Sometimes the nights got so cold and the days so hard and long that if I wouldn't have then I wouldn't have made it."

The Bible says that you should speak things that are not as though they were, and that you must cast down imaginations and everything that exalts itself against the knowledge of God. It also says that the power of life and death is in the tongue. So, you can speak life or you can speak death. I chose to speak life into my situation. I chose to use my imagination to take me higher. Not just in this life but higher in Christ.

I want to ask you some questions today. And this is mainly for the people that are going through right now. When you think about your tomorrow are good things waiting for you? When you imagine your future are you happy and blessed? Is your family happy? Are you in a better place than you are now? If you don't see good things in your future then nothing good will come your way. You must think good about you so that it can come to you. So, start seeing yourself in a better place. I promise you that it works. It worked for me and it can work for you.

And just a side note, when you start to dream and see yourself in a better place, don't share it with everybody. Long ago I stopped telling people my dreams because I would always run into dream stealers--people who are so miserable and so mad at the world that all they can do is bring you bitter words of hopelessness. Stay away from these people! They are poison. I had a few people in my life like that. I had to get rid of them--and some of them were family members.

It's time to come out of it. And it starts in your mind. If God can bring me out of poverty and despair and place me right in the middle of the life that I've always dreamed of then He can do it for anyone...if you believe.

WOW that is pretty powerful stuff right there. You can bet Friday I will be at the movie theater seeing Why Did I Get Married? I've seen all of the movies and plays Tyler Perry has done and I love them all!!!

Forgiving can be hard

Have you ever had someone that really hurt you? You try to forgive them and then something happens and the anger is right there again? When I was in counseling my counselor once told me that when you are really over someone one way you know you are over them is there isn't an emotional reaction. Made sense I suppose. When I was first hurt I prayed and prayed. I really did a great job of getting over the hurt. There was a time when my ex and I respected each other, truth be told we still had a HUGE emotional tie between us. Still we worked together as parents and friends, life was so much more peaceful.

It truly is hard to stay that way with someone when they want things their way only. Now the peace is gone. When it comes to my children being hurt that is a whole nother ballgame, it was harder to get over. I understand when you remarry things change however, I am still first and foremost my children's mother, my ex is my two children's father.....no matter what. My husband knew this and was very supportive, I mean he entered into our relationship knowing all this. I wish it was that simple for my ex. Doesn't matter how we got to the point where we are. Now it's time to fix it

My spiritual path has changed so much in the past 10 years oh yes it has. I pray and pray for peace, harmony, and restoration in our relationship (as parents). I forgive, I really try to forget. Then something is said or done that isn't right on my ex's part.....and I'm back to square one. I can't pray and then speak ill of him or recall all the bad he's done. Man this can be such a hard thing to stop or is it? I mean thoughts are so powerful and create our life so I have to stop the negative thinking period.

I've read so many different spirituality books from Dali Lama, Native American, Christian, Truth of Life, Louise Hay. I've been truly blessed because they have changed my life for the better.

It's something I have to work on everyday. When my children tell me something that has been done or said about me I HAVE TO LET IT GO. I have to go immediately to God and pray for my ex, release my anger. I see what all this has done to my children, it's not their fault. I have tried very hard to keep them out of the middle of everything, I do not talk bad about their father. At one point in my life, he was the love of my life and I respect that part of my life. It hurts the children so much to have this animosity between their parents. One great thing I can say is they know I don't speak negatively about their dad, they know there are times I don't agree but I keep it to myself (facial expressions also speak volumes), they know I am praying for their dad. I tell them stories about their dad when we were dating, when they were babies, etc so they remember the good times and know that their dad and I weren't always like this.

So I trustingly wait on God.