weight stuff

I record Oprah and finally had the chance to watch one of the shows. It was on the secrets of the Biggest Loser people. The winner, was 234 pounds and is now 125. I'm looking at this girl and saying I should be just like her. I had a good workout this morning, I've been averaging 3 times a week. Next week I want to do 4. I was having a tough time waking up Mon-Wed. I think it's because I didn't go to be till 12am, I'm used to going to sleep at the latest 10:30. I also ran out of my T2 supplement so I wonder if that might be part of it? Although today I woke up just fine, went tanning and worked out. I did the eliptical for 2 minutes then did the treadmill for 30 minutes I was at 4 incline and 3.3 speed.

I was irritated this morning and usually when I do my affirmations and prayer, it goes away but today it's a little more difficult. I stopped at McDonalds and got an iced coffee (yea I know not good) and a salad for lunch. When I got to work, being around the children lifted my irritation alot but when I got home it seemed to come back.

One thing that struck me while watching the people from Biggest Loser is when they said they were able to change their eating and exercise but what was hard was how they thought of themselves. I can relate to that. For so many years I was over weight and basically that is why my first husband left is because my body didn't match my face. the things he said hurt and tried to scar me. I have moments where I struggle with feeling fat and not good enough. I know none of that is true. I find what helps me is watching shows like Oprah and reading good articles. I like realage.com it's got good recipes and articles. I like to read inspiring things and it helps me.

I have to keep telling myself I can do it

ouchy

woke up with the worst sinus/migraine headache, I thought my eyes were going to pop out. Even the back of my nose hurt. Took sudafed and drank some coffee that usually knocks it right out...nope. I had to take vicadin and that has never happened to me before. The past almost year I've been getting these nasty headaches like once a month :(

hmmm gotta figure out what is going on. The last one I had was in March. Wasn't able to exercise obviously but will hope tomorrow I will be all better. I don't like when I can't exercise I feel so much better when I do!!

I've been hearing more people say lately different sayings like once a cheater always a cheater, a lepoard doesn't change its spots, etc. Is that really the case? If a person maybe isn't the nicest or honest does that mean they can't change? I've always believed that anyone can change if they want to. If someone truly wants to make their life better and get out of the rut they are in, they can do it. Does everyone do it? No, but why think the worst of someone right off the bat? I know you have to look at someone's actions as well as what they say.

Seems like too much judging going on. I know I can be guilty of it too, but try very hard to be more encouraging than anything.

I'm finding it still hurts to think so I'll end this. Be Blessed

June 1

Just finished working out....wow it was awesome!! I always have my ipod on, gotta have my music :). I wanted something uplifting, searched the music I had and went to Juanita Bynum, she has fabulous worship/praise music. So I put her on, closed my eyes, held on to the bar (on a treadmill), felt the music and my spirits just soared. I pictured myself healthy, thin, and beautiful. Then went on to be very thankful for all the blessings in my life. I've started running for a minute every 10 minutes to help get my endurance up again. I'm not one that likes to sweat but man it feels really good.

I also started thanking my body for all the wonderful things it's done for me despite my neglect whether it was from laziness or lack of knowledge.

Been doing good with eating more fruits and veggies. I want to get a juicer really badly, Dr. Mercola's website has one that I would love to get. Soon

I want to get some healthier recipes or rather new ones :) So the healthclub where I'm a member had a belly dancing class........I really wanna do it!!!

Ok time to get in the shower and get my butt to work.
Be Blessed