weight stuff

I record Oprah and finally had the chance to watch one of the shows. It was on the secrets of the Biggest Loser people. The winner, was 234 pounds and is now 125. I'm looking at this girl and saying I should be just like her. I had a good workout this morning, I've been averaging 3 times a week. Next week I want to do 4. I was having a tough time waking up Mon-Wed. I think it's because I didn't go to be till 12am, I'm used to going to sleep at the latest 10:30. I also ran out of my T2 supplement so I wonder if that might be part of it? Although today I woke up just fine, went tanning and worked out. I did the eliptical for 2 minutes then did the treadmill for 30 minutes I was at 4 incline and 3.3 speed.

I was irritated this morning and usually when I do my affirmations and prayer, it goes away but today it's a little more difficult. I stopped at McDonalds and got an iced coffee (yea I know not good) and a salad for lunch. When I got to work, being around the children lifted my irritation alot but when I got home it seemed to come back.

One thing that struck me while watching the people from Biggest Loser is when they said they were able to change their eating and exercise but what was hard was how they thought of themselves. I can relate to that. For so many years I was over weight and basically that is why my first husband left is because my body didn't match my face. the things he said hurt and tried to scar me. I have moments where I struggle with feeling fat and not good enough. I know none of that is true. I find what helps me is watching shows like Oprah and reading good articles. I like realage.com it's got good recipes and articles. I like to read inspiring things and it helps me.

I have to keep telling myself I can do it