4-17-10

Funny my last post was about how I ran into my Dad at Kohl's and now I'm going to add more about him. Facebook is a wonderful thing I have found many friends from high school and also added many family members I haven't seen or spoken to in years. One cousin of mine I've always loved dearly and been close to, she is from my dad's side of the family. Because of Facebook my cousin and mom are friends on there. I guess my cousin and mom chatted on the phone yesterday for over an hour. My mom was told my dad has mesotheliaoma and isn't doing well. My mom wanted me to know so I can make peace with him.....me make peace with him? I didn't do anything to cause the seperation between us, he gave up his parental rights and never looked back. Not only to me but my 2 sisters and brother.

I guess I shocked her because she thought I would call him. Uh no. I'm very sorry he is sick and I will pray for him. I have had so much happening to me especially the last 5 years I don't want anymore hurt or stress. I text my sisters about it and ended up on the phone with my oldest sis, we both got choaked up but agree to leave things alone. My other sister is a bit more angry about it and that's just her way of dealing with it.

I'm no longer with my boyfriend, he pretty much gave up on us. When you have someone changing their whole life from a marriage ending, moving 1800 miles, children, job, etc etc it takes time to get things together. Instead of being by my side he chose to give up. I have moments where I really struggle with missing him but when I look back on his actions I have to move on. There were many great things about him and yet many things that drove me nuts so to speak. I could see how his negativity was holding him back from a better life and it was hard. I pray alot for him. Funny thing is, the last time we broke up he gave back all my belongings and we didn't speak. It's different he texts me and we talk on the phone sometimes, in fact last week he made a comment he decided to call me because I never call him.....uhhh I didn't wanna be a pain, so he asks when has that stopped me before (joking of course). OOOOH I see, someone wants to fight lol :). Like I said I really do miss him, I miss laughing, joking, and spending time together. Can't force someone to stay or do the right thing so now I'm just working on me still.

My adrenals are doing so much better. My blood pressure looks good. My body temp is still a bit low so my thyroid doesn't seem to be up to par. I recently heard about Clean Eating, I saw the magazine at BF's sister's house almost a year ago and loved it. I've picked up 3 magazines and then decided to subscribe to it. I'm really excited to cook and eat better!! Especially since my son now has a food sensitivity to not only anything corn but now sugar and wheat. He's also been found dyslexic and I'm trying to get him on the right track. I have him seeing a homeopath for the food issues oh yea and they are saying he's ADHD but it's the hyperactivity that is the issue......uumm that's what happens with food sensivity also so is it really ADHD? We are eating Clean and Gluten Free, sometimes he gets really frustrated but I tell him what a blessing it is cuz he'll be so healthy.

We went out to breakfast today and then walked around the lake which was 3 miles wooo hooo!!! that is so awesome I remember when I could only walk 5 minutes and need a nap. My body really has come along way. I don't like the weight I've gained but I'm not worried, I'll get rid of it.

Went to see Tyler Perry's Why did I get married too? It was good!!! There was a part in there where a couple was talkin about their marriage. The gentleman said Pure love never returns void. Gave me something to pause on....

my affirmation today is:
My good comes from everyone, everything, everywhere

Be Blessed